Friday, December 20, 2013

Just once more...

Some thoughts as I slipped around on the ice walked today in a random order:

* Just once more I would like to look deep into the eyes of our baby daughter in China and whisper once again that we will love her for always.

* Just once more I would love to hear my grandfather say to me, 'sit down girl and tell me something' and then share my life with him as he would interject bits of wisdom and large doses of humor.

* Just once more I would love to sing "Hallelujah" with the concert choir of my college days.

* Just once more I would love to sit on a raft floating down the Colorado river and see the Chairman for who he was.

* Just once more I would love to study the face of our premature daughter without the obstacles of wires, tubes, and machines.

* Just once more I would love to be in front of the judge vowing I would be the Mrs.  Chairman until death do we part.

* Just once more I'd like to share a bedroom with my older sister and tell her to stop breathing on my neck.

* Just once more I would love to walk into the Woolworth store that my dad managed and share a little bit of my school day with him and then wander to the candy counter and look longingly.

* Just once more I would love to sit in my cubicle at the Target store headquarters and be a someone that does actual work and not just housework.

* Just once more I would love to drive my '66 teal Chevy Nova.

* Just once more I would love to feel my daughter move within me when I was expecting.

* Just once more I would love to be in my old meetings in SD, MN, and WI with all the ones that fed and encouraged me.

* Just once more I would love to climb the big pine tree in front of my grandparents house with my dad just above me.

* Just once more I'd like to sit in the rusted '65 Mustang and dream of the places we'd go if we could just drive. 

* Just once more I would love to ice skate in my hometown with the air temperature being -25 without the wind chill factored in.

* Just once more I would love to be a little girl sitting on my mom's lap as she talked softly and erased all my little-girl cares.

* Just once more I would love to sit in our own living room with our three babies on my lap reading "Brown Bear" or "Go Dog Go".

* Just once more I would love to sit and visit with my sister-in-law.  

I think this is enough.  As I thought and typed these out, it didn't make me sad.  In fact, it made me grateful for how full my life has been and for all the moments we are living today that I'll one day wish I could do just once more.  



4 comments:

  1. LOVED this post Linda! We enjoyed seeing your folks last Wednesday. :-)

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  2. "just once more" ( and more! ) I would like to stop by the house on the edge of town with the interesting mailbox or make an phone "visit" into town.... ahhhh. Life was good to us too.

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  3. Well this post made me cry- must be my bedtime. It was truly a beautiful post.
    I would like to doing the Hallelujah Chorus again, too.

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  4. I can so relate to these even with different circumstances of life! Especially sitting with my 3 children reading "Go Dog Go!". And I too can't wait to sit and visit soon!! We've been saving up lots of things to visit about!

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